Halow Effect

The Nile's Edge
2003-11-07 21:13:58 (UTC)

Emma's Fervent Garden

so, it's friday...the weekend's begun. i have so much to
do, it's almost down to the wire. heh. wire?

i have more reading still to do than i've gotten done...
then i have to study what i've read. i never buget my time
well.

i am excited about going to orlando next weekend, though.
but i still don't see it happening, not all they way,
because i think i'm the only one excited about it. i see
joe backing out and going to st. pete that weekend because
of some unforeseen thing with his GF, work, school or
whatever. and cristy might get hit with something else. i
don't care, i'll go alone...get other people to go with
me. =)

i was so upset last night...i feel better now. but i'm
not "Settled" i don't think. still alittle miffed. and i
feel bad because i snapped at someone that didn't deserve
it. it was on the computer so my tone wasn't
really 'heard' but i know what tone i had, so i am stuck
with the guilt because of it. i guess getting offended by
something someone says means you really do have that
particular problem, at least at some degree. but it felt
good to be upset, to get those feelings out. it felt good
to cry and not know exactly what i was crying about. they
said i was "in a bad mood and looking the negativity in
it"...to me, that sounds like an accusation. sounds
like "you're just feeling sorry for yourself". yeah, i can
see that...but no one else could, it was MY situation.

and i'm a firm believer in 'no emotion is uncalled for if
you feel it in the first place.' i'll stick to that till
the day i die. no one's going to tell me what i'm feeling
is wrong, stupid, unnecessary, or dramatic. that really
didn't apply to last night though...that's more of a
general thing.

yeah...shower. then i need to study.




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