~*Moon*Child*~

The Mind of Tee La
2003-11-04 21:17:59 (UTC)

Optimism (SCARY!)


Today is a really lazy day. I really feel relaxed and
at peace with myself. I don't know, it may just be the
music. I was listening to Savage Garden and Louis
Armstrong. Savage Garden is absolutely the best. It truly
is. TRULY, MADLY, DEEPLY!!! Lol. Sorry.
Sarah and I just woke up about an hour ago. She moved
in yesterday. No one seems to mind except for her
brothers, which is really odd because they never treated
her as a person. Why they would care now, I will never
know.
Anyway, this morning was kind of annoying. Sarah and I
went to bed around 4 in the morning, only because we were
both excited. I'm kind of straying from the main point...
At 7, someone started blowing their leaves. It lasted up
until just a few moments ago. It's 3:30 now! We didn't
sleep very well. And on top of everything, my kitten kept
trying to eat my fish. I finally decided to move Tony to
my bathroom. I saved my fishy!!!! WOO!
Yeah, so I'm really happy these days. I couldn't ask for
a better life. Everything that I wished for is coming
true. It's odd, because I've never had a series of things
like that happen to me at once. For instance, I wished
that I could have my cat back, and just a few days ago,
someone I used to work with called up asking me if I wanted
her kitten, which was actually the littermate of the kitten
I originally wanted several months ago. I was so happy.
With each passing day, she reminds me more and more like
Clairence. I don't feel lonely anymore and I don't miss
her as much. In my heart I feel that she has come back to
me. I feel complete for the first time since April, when
she died. I've decided to name her Mercedes. It's from
the Count of Monticristo. It suits her, she's a little
spoiled brat already. But she's the sweetest kitten.
I'm also excited by the fact that we're planning on
moving within a year or two. We're going to update the
house and sell it and move out to Colorado, exactly where I
want to be. I've never been so happy in a place before.
We're also talking about getting a house with about 5
bedrooms and start and bed and breakfast. Though I'm not
really sure because my mom always has these big plans and
never truly follows through. It's something to look for
though. I'm staying optimistic. It's nice to know that I
may not have to go to school here anymore. I can't stand
this place and I'm ready to move on with my life.
The cleaning business that my best friend's mom has
started is going national. So we may be going out to North
Carolina for about a week. Which means Christmas money!
Lots of it! I'm so excited. I can't wait to buy everyone
gifts. Plus I'm saving up to go to Colorado for my
birthday this summer. Something else to look forward to.
I'm so excited. I'm also excited about the car that I'm
getting during the summer too, and my license. I also
can't wait for Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year's
Eve. Those three holidays have to be the most exciting for
me. So yeah, I'm extremely happy. =) I'm not depressed
anymore. I'll write more tonight if I get the chance to.




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