pensive problematic

a thought in the mind of her
2003-11-04 05:46:43 (UTC)

All of this past::sarah Bettens

Here I go again slipping further away
Letting go again of what keeps me in place
I like it here but it scares me to death
There is nothing here

The light is beautiful but I’m darker than light
And you are wonderful but this moment is mine

I find comfort here cuz I know what is lost
Hope is always fear for the pain it may cost
And I have searched for the reason to go on
I’ve tried and I’ve tried but it’s taking me so long

I might be better off closing my eyes
And God will come looking for me
In time

All of this dust
All of this past
All of this over and gone
And never coming back
All of this forgotten
Not by me

I can see myself
I look peaceful and pale
But underneath I can barely inhale
I can hear myself singing that song
Over and over until it belongs to me