tbqb12

my stupid mouth
2003-11-01 05:18:36 (UTC)

have you had your nick at nite tonight?

because i certainly did, as is becoming habit. oh, let's
see, i think this makes 3 nights out of 4 that i have
talked to nick for an hour or more. i can see jeff's point
when he asked what we talk about. it doesn't seem like
there would be anything to discuss. i see him everyday in
school, and it's not like he's lindsay or taryn or cristin
with whom i can talk about any random thing. but somehow,
the time gets filled with conversation. tonight, he told
me that he's coming to my house to watch football on
sunday. apparently, he's coming at 12:30. ok, so i know
he's joking around. but he kept bringing it up. and he
kept saying, "see you sunday" and everything. and he's the
type of person who would find my address and directions to
my house and everything. now, i doubt he would actually
follow through, but why would he even bring that up? i
would never say anything like that to him. the funny part
is, i never really said, "no, you can't come." man, that
would be the craziest thing ever. nick? at my house?
without any other friends here? i don't know if i could
deal with that. ok, i can stop overanalyzing now since
it's not reality.

oh, the other thing that came up. he's been bugging me and
bugging me to tell him what the numbers in my screenname
mean. i don't think i've ever told anyone before. i've
actually become embarassed about it because it's so dumb.
but there's something about the way that nick is so
incredibly persistent (to the point of being annoying) that
i just give in. and, yeah, i gave in this time, too. it
bothers me that he can do that to me. i think it's just
easier if i tell him so he'll shut up. and then he said i
was probably lying to him, but i definitely wasn't. and
then he said we were best friends. so who knows? the
level of weirdness continues to grow.

don't make fun of ocd. it's not a laughing matter.




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