Waldo

Trouble Breathing
2003-10-30 21:33:18 (UTC)

What the hell....

is wrong with me?

I slept like crap last night -- two more nightmares. One
about hornets chasing me until I finally gave up and let
their excruciating stings cripple me....the other
nightmare: I was inside a train that was headed for a
bridge where the tracks had been damaged. I was
alone on the train and I couldn't stop it...I woke up as
the train and I were falling to our bloody death.

Why?

I normally have two nightmares a year -- in the last two
weeks, I've had 11 bad ones.

And why can't I shake this feeling that something,
somewhere is wrong -- really really wrong?

I'm nauseated today and I feel sooooo tired....I feel like I
haven't slept in months, even though I have.

I'm not doing anything different with my diet -- no pain
pills or other mood/mind altering drugs -- I have no
conscious fear or worry about anything. My life is pretty
good right now.

Except for this feeling of the unknown that's hanging
over me like a shadow.

Reg said I need a vacation -- maybe I do...




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