Nicole

~Lost in Darkness~
2003-10-29 22:02:57 (UTC)

Dont Judge What YOU dont Understand

DONT JUDGE WHAT YOU DONT UNDERSTAND~ Nicole new/fav motto!

For all those fucking morons out there in this god
forsaken world, do us a favor and shut the fuck up! PLEASE!
Im barelly keeping my head straight trying to be and do
everything all at the same time, i dont need you dumnass's
telling me BS.

Alright this is why im p/o. At school everyday, first
thing in the morning, in my first class, theres about 4
people in that class that need to grow the fuck up! Alright
I can understand if your a slow learner, thats fine. No
prob, but if your going to act up every freakin day, not
pay attention, and then wonder why you dont do well on the
tests, something is seriouslly wrong. Im preatty good for
the next 2 or so hours. Sometimes theres one blond in my
third who asks questions to which we were just given the
answer to, and p/o everyone in the class. But today in
lunch Brian pissed me off. Not my b/f Brian, no Brian
Gould. Please Yet Again I will
Say
"Dont Judge What You Dont Understand" For crying out
loud. Ya im sorry, i may be almost 6 months into a
relatioship with my Brian, and ya I still look at other
guys. So? Alright first off, does anyone remember my last 2
consecutive relationships, uhh they ended terriablly. I
tried to get piss drunk after my last one, but you know
what, i didnt, i threw my party and still had a great time
despite what happened not a week be4. I've learned first
hand that despire how infatuated you may be, you NEED to
look outside of your relationship. You NEED to make sure
your with someone you LIKE! YOu NEED to know you can
survive if he lets you go. I found this out the hard way, I
made a mistake, and i did it again, and it hurt worse the
second time, but i leaned. And yet again so what if I look
at other guys? As long as Im just looking, and thats all,
ive commited No crime. I have not 'daydrempt'
or 'fantasised' I LOOKED!!! GOD DAMN!! That pissed me off
so much today. And hello, lets turn this around, if I
remember correctlly, my b/f has Chicks posted all over his
side of the room, if I remember correctlly he has his pc
set with a screen savor of chicks almost if not completelly
naked. Im sorry Brian, but if you hate girls like me who
look at other guys while in a relationship, maybe you need
to look at their past, or the kind of guys they use to date
be4 judging us.

IM HAPPY WITH MY BOYFRIEND DAMNIT!

Why is that so fucking hard for everyone to see and just
except. I only say that other guys are cute, because they
are! Hell ill even say when I think a chick is Hot. But im
happy With my boyfriend, and I dont intend to cheat,
breakup, or even hurt him in any remote way possible. If my
saying that another male is cute is going to hurt him, then
its because he has self-esteem issues. And the thing is, I
know my boyfriend is hot, i know my boyfriend can be 'male'
at times, because thats what he is. I know this and I
accept it. You think seeing chicks naked on his PC helped
my esteem, it diddnt. But you know what, thats my problem.
I know i look good, but I know I could look better. He
looks at other girls, but he would never do anything to
hurt me. So back to the original subject; lets repeat it.

'Dont Judge What You Dont Understand'

Oh and Brian G. let me also say this. You have Hannah, You
have her for this year and next. I MIGHT have my b/f for
the max of 7 more months, IF im luckey. So you know looking
at other guys might be my way of preping myself for the
goodbye that will eventually come. So hate me if you must,
but be4 you do, look at my situation from my eyes.




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