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2003-10-24 20:39:32 (UTC)

October 23, 2003

Monday: I went to work completely lighten up like a X-mas
tree. My co-workers were quite surprised to see me in such
a happy mood. A bunch of the guys asked about our date and
I filled them in on the info. I had a terrific time and I
can’t wait to see her again. Ace had previously informed
me of a Halloween Party at Jodie’s (The Matron of Honor)
place on Halloween night and originally I had planned to
invite Cheryl to the party and THAT would be the next time
I see her. But after talking to Eric, I’ve come to decide
that I really should see her earlier. PLUS I want to see
her earlier. But just because I’m starting to date this
new young lady doesn’t mean I should limit myself to just 1
girl (especially being that it was just a 1st date). I
called Adrianne from the Comedy Club to thank her for the
tickets she hooked me up with. Unfortunately, she wasn’t
there. The guy from the show told me to call on
Wednesday. I figure I’ll call on Wednesday and see if I
can set something up. Is it right that I’m asking out
someone I don’t know who I haven’t ever seen before? Is it
really fair to Cheryl?

Tuesday: I called Cheryl and the conversation was just the
way I liked it. Short and sweet. I told her about the
Halloween party coming up and she didn’t seem to like that
idea. Quite frankly, I don’t blame her. I’m not really
too keen on the idea of a Halloween party either, but the
advantage is that it’s a 2nd opportunity to see her and it
will be far less expensive being that it’s a party. (Not
to imply I’m cheap, but dating gets expensive….). But I
told her about it and told her we can talk about it another
time. (As one can see, I’m trying REALLY HARD not to talk
to this girl over the phone.). I’m really getting in with
this girl. It’s not really my nature and I know it’s not
very healthy but I’m starting to think about her all the
time. Only one thing I’m thinking may have been a
mistake. I asked her if she had a boyfriend. She said of
course not and she wouldn’t have gone out with me if she
had. She asked me if I had a girlfriend and I said no… not
at all. Maybe it was a little inappropriate to have asked
her that. So aside from that, all else is pretty tame. I
anticipated watching the Joe Schmoee Show but got some
awards night instead which means I have to wait another
week before I see the series finale and I can’t wait to see
the ending to a show I’ve been watching almost
religiously. I went to the gym for a short time too. Oh
yeah, earlier in the day I went to get some pictures
developed from the wedding. I took the pictures to the gym
and showed them to Ace and Alyssa. Not much else on this
end for today.

Wednesday: Oh man…. I HAVE been a busy boy. I called
Adrianne at the comedy club and at first, this girl
answered and it sounded JUST like her. But when I asked
for Adrianne, she was like…. Hold on. So the "REAL"
Adrianne came on and I thanked her for the tickets. I told
her that my date and I had a great time and I told her that
she is a really great person and I’m recruiting friends and
I’d love for her to be a part of it. She seemed pretty
flattered. She gave me her number and told me that I can
call her there or call her at the show and we can do
lunch. Only thing is she works every day but Mondays and
Tuesdays. My free time is during the weekends. But she
told me to call her back and maybe we can make some
arrangements. But the more I think about it, I think she
may be a chubby girl. Maybe she’s just not that pretty.
She seems pretty confident, but why would a girl who meets
a guy over the phone be willing to go out with a guy she
doesn’t know. Seems perhaps a little desperate to me. To
ME… .I’m the guy. It’s ok for me to do these things (And
no one better give me any sexism crap). But for a girl to
agree to see a guy she’s never seen before and just spoke
to over the phone….. I think it sounds a little weird. But
whatever. I’ll call her again because I really want to see
what she looks like and who knows what will happen there.
Work was work. Nothing new there. And that was Wednesday.

Thursday: I felt I needed some time away from work. So I
left early. I called in a half day and gave some lame
excuse for not being there (which was ok with my boss) and
I just went home and took care of some business stuff. I
fell asleep a little early too. I purchased some pots and
pans and even a few dishes and bowls because I need them
and at night, I called Cheryl and she didn’t answer. This
appears to be normal for Cheryl. I call her, she doesn’t
answer, she calls back 20 minutes later. Apparently, she
never called back. Sort of makes me worry. I’m just being
paranoid. I get that way sometimes. I’m really hoping to
see her this weekend. We’ll see what happens tomorrow. I
also spoke with Sue today. We’re starting to get at each
other’s nerves. And it’s really my fault. She called me
flipping out the other day about not understanding her
Chemistry stuff and she had a test coming up and that sort
of annoyed me. I tried to calm her down but she just
wouldn’t stop. I often joke around with her about having a
wife in Canada which she doesn’t really like that sort of
humor. She’s more traditional than I am and there’s
no "physical" relationship here. This whole thing, it just
isn’t working. So I asked her, "we’re friends right?" And
she said "I don’t know." Long story short, I think I
straightened the whole thing about with us just being
friends and she didn’t really seem happy about it. I felt
a little bad. I just find myself being happier with
Cheryl. I want to see other people. And there’s really
nothing here with Sue. I know I really should have been
more supportive. I shouldn’t have led her on. It’s my
fault and I take the blame for this one. I just don’t see
anything here for us. No future. Not even a present. I
haven’t been honest with her. I haven’t been fair.




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