stars_explode

lost in this dream waiting for you...
2003-10-23 17:17:08 (UTC)

why dont you go and cry about it

I am so sick of this and i am so sick of
everything...waiting for someone to take me by the hand
and jump into the sky.....you will never come...not right
now anyway.....monotonous monotony.......sick of
it......sick of it all.....and i don't want to complain
constantly....i don't want to complain at all.......its so
stupid and people dont want to hear about all this petty
bullshit that i think are problems........i am way to
forgiving and way to forgetful........why must i torture my
self this way........I have let go of the hell from
minnesota.....but he is still hurting me.....i hate this.........I
just want to pop in some good jazz music and paint for
days but i have these fucked up responsilities to my
self and others........I am so sick of people makin false
fucking accusations about myself and they way i protray
myself.......image isn't everything......I am not some f-n
YM model....they are bullshit.......I may have short unkept
curly hair, i may wear faded jeans, crappy shoes, and
worn off nailpolish.........but does that mean that i am
any less of a fucking girl......sorry. my life is not about
impressing some fucking gap model........i have my own
mind with nothing but getting the hell out of here on
it...........and fuck everyone that says that i cant do it....




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