psychomagnet

Something no one will want to read.

So just dont.

I cannot believe that this kid would fucking call me and
wake me up in the middle of the night when I have to be up
for work in a matter of hours, INSIST that i wake up
to "Talk about this, resolve this now" and give me some
fucked up bullshit like this. I am so fucking angry and
frustrated whether it be because hes such an inconsiderate
piece of shit or whether I WAS FUCKING SLEEPING I FUCKING
WENT TO BED EARLY FOR FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING ONCE
... I said VERY clearly a week ago, "dont make plans
saturday night." My parents had somewhere they wanted to
take us that he would like and I told him do whatever he
wants Friday because I made plans with my friends and I
dont give a shit what he does except for Saturday and its
MY MOTHERFUCKING BIRTHDAY GOD DAMN IT WHY THE FUCK DOES NO
ONE GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THAT! NO ONE! EVERYONE HAS
SOMETHING MORE IMPORTANT TO DO AND THE LAST FUCKING THING I
NEED AT THIS POINT RIGHT NOW IS BEING BLOWN OFF ON MY
MOTHERFUCKING BIRTHDAY

ANYWAY I said it CLEARLY and now he WAKES ME THE FUCK UP to
say "My family wants to take me out to dinner Saturday
night" OKAY WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY TO THAT? I
TOLD YOU IT WAS IMPORTANT, ITS MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY AND THE
PLANS ARE MAINLY FOR YOU ANYWAY AND WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU
WAKING ME UP FOR?? WHAT DO YOU WANT??

and i dont know if i got through to him or if he just shut
up because after I got done screaming i said "Fuck you let
me tell you something I dont even WANT you with me on my
birthday or any other day ever" and he got real quiet and
said I'm really sorry. I'm guna go. and i hung up.

but why doesnt anyone seem to care about it? my aunt
wouldnt come down even though denny offered her his
blazer. and friday, ashleigh probably isnt coming, ashley
might not come, caroline wont get out or wont be "able" to,
tammy has a wedding WHAT THE FUCK

WHY AM I SO FUCKING ALONE NO MATTER WHERE I AM OR WHAT I DO
OR ANYTHING NO ONE GIVES A SHIT AND NO ONE HAS TIME AND WHY
AM I STILL TRYING WHY DO I EVEN FUCKING WAKE UP IN THE
MORNING IM SO FUCKING SICK OF THIS BULLSHIT EVERY FUCKING
DAY OF MY LIFE

She doesnt care enough to leave her and if she cared enough
she would and shes sitting there paying for all her shit
and fucking whatever I dont even fucking care about
anything anymore I wish I would just not wake up anymore
because I CANT HANDLE THIS ANYMORE I WANT TO SCREAM NO ONE
UNDERSTANDS THAT I LOVE THEM NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME PERIOD
AND NO ONE GIVES A SHIT