Gaelwyn

My life in music
2003-10-14 16:00:23 (UTC)

Divorce Blues

Speaking of weddings... (previous entry)

Brian and Lizabeth's divorce is final.
They are acting as if it is something to celebrate. And
maybe it is, both of their lives have been going good since
their split. They are moving on. But I just don't see
divorce as something to celebrate, especially when there
are still so many ill feelings between them.

I guess I just couldn't be so happy about this situation,
if I were going thru it. Brian is even talking about
throwing a party. I mean something you thought was special,
and were willing to make a life time commmitment to, ended.
How is that a thing to celebrate?

I think that is why I have never gotten serious about
someone. I don't think I could handle something I put so
much time and effort into falling apart. I'd much rather be
on the fring of someone's left. Somewhere where I don't get
to close and we wouldn't get to hurt.

I know that I should think that my above statement is sad
and limiting, but I don't. I don't mind just being there
sometimes. I actually like it. I share hopes and dreams and
all the rest, but there is distance. A space just for me.

*shrug*

Enough introspection.

later,




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