lostnumber17

Dairy Land
2003-10-08 22:39:35 (UTC)

Chapter One: Does Anyone Care?

Does anyone care? Not the people I know. My friends don't
care if I'm absent a lot. They may say: "Hey, she's not
here today and hasn't been for a while, I wonder.." but do
they ever say, "I wish she'd come back"?

Does anyone care that I get straight A's in school? They
say "good job", but when my brother gets A's they always
make a big deal out of it. How many honors classes does he
take? Any?...

Does anyone care that I take Academic classes? I mean...My
school only cares about honors students, and I'm kind of
in the middle. Do any of my teachers care if I show up to
talk to them? Do they even think about me? Does anyone
think of me? Why did my dad forget my birthday? Why didn't
he want to talk to me on the phone the other night when he
called to wish my brother happy birthday? Why does he care
about my brother more than me?

Does anyone care that I have a birthday too? Yeah- it's
September 3, but does anyone care? How many people
responded when I invited them to my party? I had to dog
them to come and make up excuses for calling them just so
I can bring up the subject of "oh, btw, are you coming?"
That's wrong. It's not how it should be. They should want
to come...right? Let me count my real friends: 1
That's not a very high number, but I always told
myself "if you have one good friend that's good
enough"...or...was I saying that to try and make myself
feel better..?

Why don't boys like me? Am I not pretty enough? I think
I'm pretty, but then why are there other girls less pretty
that have boyfriends when I'm stuck with dust? Why can't
my friends want to talk to me instead of me wanting them
to talk to me? Does anyone care I have feelings?

Does anyone care?

Yes, I think, no I know that there are 2 people who care.
God cares. I know he does. He loves me when no one else
will. The other person is my best friend, Mia. She and I
will always be best friends until we die. She is the only
person on earth who cares.

What do you know? 2 people that care....That's more than
one. And you know what? That's okay.




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