blkdragon

grounded
2003-10-04 17:02:03 (UTC)

God doesn't put anything on you that you can't handle

I always believed that should anything happen to my
Grandmother, I would feel it and know. My Grandmother died
2 yrs ago (7/25/01) and this month marks the anniversary
of
her birth (10/1/09). A very special friend of mine lost
her Mother last Tuesday, Princess, I'm with you whenever
you need me.
My Grandmother was the strongest person I've ever known,
she had 17 children, if that's not a show of strength; I
don't know what is. She outlived all but 3 daughters, she
was married to my Grandfather for 65 years and she was
devoted to her family. All that I am is because of her,
the fact that I can tap my feelings and express myself,
she encouraged me.
I still remember her getting up at 4/5am to prepare the
meals for the day, 17 children means you must begin the
day early. I was a chef for thirteen years and realize
that my love for preparing food came from her, there is
nothing better than feeding a soul and seeing them enjoy
what you put your heart and soul into.
My Grandmother had cancer, not sure which one and she
battled it quietly for years; her whole life seemed
wrought with trials and tribulations that she overcame
with dignity and faith. She once told me that God never
puts on you more than you could handle and that became the
mantra I voice when times seem more than I believe I can
bear, she was the example I live by.
My Grandmother is always with me, in my heart/mind and
soul.
Most of her children died from some form of drug addiction
or cancer.
My Grandfather was an alcoholic all of my life, apparently
life was too much for him to cope or life beat down on him
too harshly for him to stand tall, whenever he did stand
tall; it was because my Grandmother was supporting him in
every way she could, for her "til death do we part" was a
vow she would keep until her death.
When life was too much for me at home or just because, I
would go to her home and stay for a while, she was
firm/stern and loving. When my Aunt Pat died (from
cancer), I was there at my Grandmother's home. My Aunt
awoke from a nap and came into the living room to tell my
Grandmother and the rest of the family present that she
was going to sleep and then she said "goodbye", she went
to sleep and never reawakened, that was an epiphany for
me; I was shown that death didn't have to be feared and at
times, welcomed.
When a loved one passes through the doors of this reality,
we are left to feel sorry for whom, ourselves for being
left behind and lonely; it's ok to feel this way, as long
as you know that you cry for yourself. When a loved one
passes, they're beyond the pains of this life! This was
the lesson I learned, it's ok to be selfish for a time.
Our loved ones leave when it's their time and we can never
be the ones that say otherwise, for everything there is a
season and that season ends when it ends.
Peace to all that have gone before me and love to all that
come after me, I am touched by you all and I hope you
receive my touch with love. I am blessed by your presence
and I hope my presence blesses you!
Princess, I hope this helps you...all my love!




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