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Mental Screamings
2003-10-04 16:52:36 (UTC)

Going James Bond on Your Ass

Quick! Go get your favorite warm caffinated beverage (no
dew, thank you) before you start reading this because I
feel a long post coming on. We'll start with the day
itself.

I started by sleeping through my alarm. I woke up 10
minutes before the class began, so I did the "OH SHIT"
version of getting ready for class. I forwent socks
because they took too long to put on. Once at class, they
gave out a quiz, which I didnt really do too good on. I
was too busy watching the Twins lose the previous night.

After class, I went back to my room (forgoing breakfast, I
might add). I recieved an e-mail from my spy network
dealing with Kate (which I will talk about later) and wrote
yesterday's post. Then I went to lunch and Calc. Calc was
boring as usual. I need to review the stuff we are
learning so I can understand it. He just started into it
and used terminology that I was unfamiliar with. I'll
figure it out, though.

I went back to the dorm and then went to choir. There I
traded my $7 for my friend's unwanted copy of Final Fantasy
Tactics (Mer, dont kill me. I also am doing it for
collecting purposes...). Choir was kinda fun, I guess.

I went to TMC (a food service alternative on campus) with
some friends for dinner. We came back, and there was talk
about going to the Jazz concert. I thought it sounded
cool. Bonus points for the fact that Kate was going also.
We went and the music was ok. I got tired of the format
after the 20th song where everyone playing had a 10 minute
solo, but I guess it was cool anyways. We were then
invited by one of our friends to go to Taco Johns after the
concert. We ended up going to DQ (better choice in my
opinion). We ate our ice cream, and then went back to
their dorms and watched Daria. Quite humorous.

At like 1 or 1:30, we decided to head back towards our
dorms. On the way, we met up with Brian, a gay guy from
gay hall. He was escorting two girls home, one who
admitted to being drunk, and one who I wasnt pay attention
to, but probably was drunk too. The first girl admitted to
thinking I was cute when she saw me at orientation
(although she would never admit it if she were sober...).
I thought the event was amusing. We returned to the dorm,
where they were playing Magic, the card game. Kate and I
waited until the game was over, and then joined in. It was
a five person game. I used one of Adam's decks and Kate
used one of Ben's. Mandi was the fifth person. Kate and I
were both pretty much beginners, but I had been watching
them play all year and had played a little bit myself, so I
knew pretty much the basics. Adam helped me with my game
and Ben helped with Kate's game. I ended up winning the
whole game. I also gave the killing blow to at least 3 of
the people and I think all four of my opponenets. It was
fun.

At 4:30, everyone went to bed. I snuck into my room (Will
had been there since 11. He had gone to a party and passed
out from drinking. One of the other floormates was
babysitting him and brought him back.) and went to bed.

Now on for the spy stuff. The part from Kate's intercepted
e-mail:

About relationships I have no idea what is going on. I
got asked out by a guy on my floor and I don't really
know what to do. I don't know about Sam either. I
still like him but I don't know if I really want a
serious relationship right now. I have never had a
boyfriend before and I have no idea how to go about
it.

I'm 95% sure that the "guy on my floor" is Tim. While it
doesnt suprise me, I'm a little worried. I'm guessing she
turned him down (along with Kari, when he asked her out.
Wow, 0/2 poor guy) since I'm sure news of that date would
have traveled around the floor. It still worries me,
though.

The fact that she still likes me is a good thing. The fact
that it is completely devoid of any degree of like is not a
good thing. I can understand the serious relationship
part. I respect that. I guess my worry is that she doesnt
want the serious relationship, and then later down the road
finds someone right when she decides that she wants one and
I dont get a chance...

I'm really not sure what to do with it. I suppose I could
go a few ways. I could focus in on the "I still like him"
part and try and bring that out, I could focus in on the "I
don't know if I want a serious relationship right now" part
and leave her alone, I could sit her down and tell her that
i have this and we could together as adults talk this out,
or I could sit on my ass, do nothing, hoping that she makes
some sort of move, but not making one myself. I am really
not a fan of any of them. If I do the first one, I could
be rejected. If I do the second one or fourth one, I could
lose her just because I didnt make a move and she no longer
thinks I'm interested. If I do the third one, she could
kick my ass because I'm not supposed to have the e-mail and
she might think I'm a prick for having it. So, I'm just
kinda lost and confused now. I dunno where to go.

G'day




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