larsipoo

a plain morning
2003-09-30 21:47:29 (UTC)

on edge

I'm so desperately in love.

But that's besides the point.

I've also come to accept that he'll never look at me in
the same light I see him, because all I am, and ever will
be, is just Laura. Just that girl, that friend who's warm
and comfy to sleep with, but who's just a friend. That's
what I am. And I can handle that.

Something's changing. The past month has been emotionally
draining. But something is different. Not within me, but
within everyone around me. It's not stress from classes or
exams. This is a different kind of stress. This is an
edgy, anxious tension. There's a difference, you know. I
can feel it. I'm much more in tune with those around me
than I used to be.

I feel as though something is going to happen on a larger
scale than I expect. Something to someone. Someone's going
to get hurt, or we'll lose someone. I don't know. I feel
like it's going to be within my direct social circles, and
also that something's going to happen on a more general,
larger scale. I've never felt this before.

Blech.

I don't know.




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