Amnesia

dude
2003-09-30 21:16:38 (UTC)

A deeper connection.

Day in and Day out that TDC hangs out, we grow closer. Two
days ago, on Sunday it was cold. So after we went bowling
with Tequila, we stayed in Tim's cadillac listening to
music and talking. It was 3 in the morning or so. Tim was
in the front behind the wheel, and Chris and I were in the
back seat after creating some body heat. Like I've
mentioned it was cold, we were tired, infront of Chris's
house. So he went home and brought a blanket. We were under
that. It was another episode of Dr.Drew. Or so it started.
We cought up on how our days were apart from each other. I
told them how my date went. That still sounds weird. We
started talking about relationships and what we look for in
the perfect mate. It was nice. Although Chris started
spacing out. He started getting visions again. This time it
was infront of us, and he wasn't sleeping. He saw
somebodies wedding. Later he said something about some kid
swiping sunglasses, and asked tim about some game. I have
no idea what was in his head at the time. So we told him to
just go to sleep. He had to be up for school in 2 hours or
so.

We met up the next day, he was fine. Got 3 hours of sleep
even. I got about 5.

(When we were heading back from the alley looking for an
IHOPs david got us lost and on the long way back I got a
little tired so I put my head on Chris's lap. He put his
hand on my shoulder. It was kinda intimate, very nice. I've
never had that. He was going to sleep himself. But by gosh
did he make me feel nice. I couldn't fall asleep, but it
was a very good feeling. I hope florida is going to be like
this. It would be so nice. But even more if Tim would come
out of his shell and join in. I know steph would join, so
it would be helpful to not have tim just standing on the
outside looking in. I don't think he's the cuddling type.
It would be nice. I imagine something that Chris suggested.
At one point all of us would pop into one bed and just
cuddle. I would like that very much it would be very
intimate and we would have a great friendly connection.)

Speeking of which, this subject brings me to Monday. We
went out again, to see the game between Chris's team, the
packers, and Tim's team, the bears. So the packers won, and
tim the major athletic's fan was kinda upset to the point
where he didn't wanna do anything afterwards. We did
though. So after seeing half the game in Charlies Ale house
at Navy Pier, and the rest of it in ESPN zone, we went back
to the car. (And by that yes I do mean the 2 passanger
little Benz. A.K.A. Chris's car.) Chris let Tim drive since
he was upset. This made me a little less comfortable in the
car since Tim put the seat closer to the peddles and I
couldn't hold my leg in there anymore without totally
interfering with the movement of the stearing wheel. That
wasn't too bad at all. Although my neck was on the back of
the car and I could feel my blood. Chris had his hands on
my legs though. In the same fashion he was calming me down
the day before which made it quite nice.

(I can't help it. I think I do like him. I'm trying to
refrain myself though. He's just a friend. Nothing more. I
doubt he wants to be more then that, and if we would be
more then that, I don't think we would click. Our
connection is great, as TDC, not DC. But I can't help being
attracted to him. Maybe it's that he's a perfect gentleman,
that he's fun, likes to cuddle and dance. and do all this
good stuff. I kinda want this feeling to go away, I hope he
never reads this.)

Our deepest connection though was when we started playing
in the park after the game. (And I'm rushing this story
cause I gotta leave for work in 10 minutes.) We played, we
climbed a tree, we chased each other it was fun. But I
didn't enjoy it at first cause I really had to go to the
bathroom. Eventually I told the guys and they told me to
just pop a squat, I'm like what? We're so close to
civilization. Eventually we all got a few bushes inbetween
each other and all peed. That's what we're pretty much
gonna do on the long road to florida, so hey. g2g




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