Beadgirl

I am out of ideas
2003-09-29 20:11:10 (UTC)

Weekend Whirl...

What a weekend! Wine and cheese reception on Friday
night, then big grand opening on Saturday. Today we are
doing very well for a Monday - almost $300 in sales!
Yay! Those are good numbers... Also sitting up here
printing up and writing brochures for bead classes and
stuff, so that I can take them to the post office tomorrow
and mail them off. This should be great - we're finally
getting folks interested in beading!

Finally feeling like myself again. Feeling comfortable
with the idea of being an artist.

Last night, Tom and I sat in the workshop with a wood fire
burning in the stove, and he made a leaf press from scrap
lumber while I sorted my millefiore chips into colors and
designs so that I can make a few beads with them. It felt
so right, the two of us like that. Had Ani on the CD
player, two of her best songs from "Not a Pretty Girl",
bringing me back to that fall so long ago when I was once
again a student at Ramapo College, and Tom was off finding
his way back to me at Paul Smiths. Thought about Sue a
lot last night, and Wendy, and Tom and I talked about why
he dumped me all those years ago, and why he wanted me
back. Then we hugged and cried and told each other that
we never wanted to be without the other, and we got all
philosophical and reflective about our lives. Then we
went inside, went to bed, and I gave him the start of a
wicked good hand job. He finished it up for me, but was
too tired to finish up himself, so we waited until we woke
up this morning, and then I gave him a wicked good hand
job for real.

My mother is still not speaking to me. Upset about the
wedding, upset that I want my father to come, upset about
everything in general. Have to make an appointment with
Karen for one day next week or one morning this week
because I am going to make myself nuts if I don't, I think.

Have to go to the River Association tomorrow to pay the
941 taxes, and then going to leave as quickly as humanly
possible!!! Don't want to know how Robin's vacation was,
or how her fundraising went on Saturday, or what she
thinks of my invasive species results. Really don't.
Just want to get out of there. Should call Marcie Neville
sometime this week and say, "Hey, want a job???"

Still trying to find some money, somewhere, for spending
at bead show in Pennsylvania. Will need some money for
food, that's obvious, but wish that we would get damn
business credit cards before we leave so that I can spend
some money! Yikes... Also wish that we could get
business loan for Lily Pond! Don't know if we are going
to be able to get anything from AEDC because of what has
happened and the fact that SDA still owes City and NBT
money for renovations. Christ, how is THAT going to
look???

Anyway, had best finish up here and then get back
downstairs for a little while, anyway...





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