ravenknight21

Reflections of the Raven
2003-09-25 01:26:48 (UTC)

...alone

well, first the general stuff. school started today. classes seem ok
so far. i'm having a bunch of paperwork sent over frommy dad's
because the financial aid dept. has decided that they want it, even
though they haven't asked for them before.


and now the sad news...

krysta is on the way to getting a bf. first off, if that is the case,i wish
her the best of luck. i hope she can be happy with him. on the
other hand it makes me really sad. this might be kind of confusing
at first, but there are two things that make it sad for me. first: krysta
has been talking to me less and less since i visited. she's an
incredibly nice person, so i don't think she'd say to my face that i
wasn't as cool as she thought...but it's hard for me not to think that
way. especially since she hasn't actually told me about the
potential bf, but just posted about it in her diary, and posted that
she has liked him for several weeks now. the other thing that
makes it bad is that in reality i know that sandra is never actually
going to come out here to stay. i don't hold it against her. i can't
ask her to leave everyone she loves, when even staying for ten
days makes her so homesick her heart aches. and sandra doesn't
want me to move out there. she's told me that she doesn't even
want me to visit.

*sigh* so basically i went from having no one care about me to
having two people care very much about me to having one of them
write me off as infatuation and the other one care deeply but not
want to leave her home...

:(

i feel so alone...


peter




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