Amnesia

dude
2003-09-24 22:48:38 (UTC)

So Victor asked me out...

And I was thinking of going. So I consoled my runes...

(blanc rune) X was the answer.

This is phenomenal good. This is what this means (thanks
for catcave.com for the quick copy/paste translations):

(A Note First: The runes are read right to left, with the
first rune representing the present, the middle the
problem, and the last the resolution/conclusion.)

X
"Gebo: Partnership
Partnership in some form is at hand. In love relationships,
in business matters, in partnering of every kind, you are
put on notice not to collapse yourself into that union.
True partnership is achieved only by separate and whole
beings who retain their separateness

The Blank Rune: The Unknowable, The Divine
Blank is the end, blank the beginning. This is the Rune of
total trust and should be taken as exciting evidence of
your most immediate contact with your own true destiny,
which, time and again, rises like the phoenix from the
ashes of what we call fate.
The appearance of this Rune can portend a death. But that
death is usually symbolic and may relate to any part of
your life as you are living it now. Relinquishing control
is the ultimate challenge for the Spiritual Warrior.
Drawing The Blank Rune may bring to the surface our deepest
fears: Will I fail? Will I be abandoned? Will it all be
taken away? And yet our highest good, our truest
possibilities and all our fertile dreams are held within
that blankness.
Willingness and permitting are what this Rune requires. The
Blank Rune often calls for no less an act of courage than
an empty-handed leap into the void. Drawing it is a direct
test of faith.
The Unknowable represents the path of karma-the sum total
of your actions and their consequences, the lesons that are
yours for this lifetime. This Rune teaches that debts of
old karma shift and evolve as you shift and evolve. Nothing
is predestined: What beckons is the creative power of the
unknown.
Whenever you draw The Blank Rune, take heart: Know that the
work of self-change is progressing in your life."

(THIS NEXT ONE GAVE ME THE CHILLS. IT'S WHAT I'VE BEEN
LOOKING FOR BUT THOUGHT A RELATIONSHIP IS THE LAST PLACE
I'D FIND THIS. THE ENDING PART IS WHAT I MEAN)


"Kano: Opening, Fire, Torch
This is the Rune of Opening and renewed clarity, of
dispelling the darkness that has been shrouding some part
of your life. You are free now both to receive gifts and to
know the joy of non-attached giving.
Kano is the Rune for the morning of activities, for
seriousness, clear intent and concentration, all of which
are essential at the beginning of any endeavor.
In relationships, there can now be a mutual opening up
which you may trigger and set in motion through your
awareness that the light of understanding is once again
available to you both.
Recognize that while on the one hand you are limited and
dependent, on the other you exist at the perfect center
where the harmonious and beneficent forces of the universe
merge and radiate. You are that center."


So this is how it happened: Today I was working late nights
again, and I thought okay cool, Victor is going to be there
and it won't be that hard. There was so much more people
today then last week. Last week was real slow. Today they
said was just like always. Because of that I do prefer
working mornings. Although it might be worth having Victor
there to look at whenever I'm bored, and flirt with him
whenever there is a chance.

It was super fast at first, and I came in quick and got
right to work, so that made me be mindless the whole day.
Which sucks cause this was faster then noon rush. We had
like 4 large trays lined up, plus 3 tickets for drive thru,
plus a whole line waiting, plus everyone was ordering
dinners. Yikes!!!

Eventually we got to flirt a little. Okay I lied, alot. And
later I don't remember how, we, (Victor, Stella, me, and a
bit of Poncho from the Rancho he was standing further off
and stella kept asking him certain questions, of what he
thought) got to this topic but we started talking about
who pays when a guy and a girl go out. Hanging out with
Chris lately I said I pay for myself, which they
interpreted as I pay for both. So Victor goes really? We
should go out then. Stella incourages him then. Saying that
if he were to take me out he'd take me to mcDonald's and
buy me a small, free glass of water where we would have to
share it. Stuff like that. Eventually I cleared it up that
I would pay for myself, and the guy would pay for himself,
kind of an equality thing. (God I don't know how I'll keep
my head free of distraction during meditation tonight.) He
still said that he'd still want to go out with me. So he
started saying that we would go out to the movies, he'd
pick me up Thursday cause it's his day off Mine too just
so happens. (Actually when he said that Stella made a joke
that we should come here to eat afterwards, that Dimitri
will give us a discount. He said Yeah right, I won't give
my own mother a discount. HaHa!) So I told him I work at my
other job on Thursday. Stella laughed again when I said I
work in theatre. She thought I meant in a theatre and I can
get us free tickets. Later I again clarified. So she asked
me when do I get out, and I said 6:30 and they both said
that's perfect, that he would pick me up afterwards and
we'd go somewhere. (Which would be good, cause I wouldn't
mind being dropped off first, rather than picked up. I
think it makes for an easier parental introduction. Or ice
breaker, whatever, in this case atleast.) So I was
thinking, this is a great opening, is he for real though?
So Stella and I went to clean outside in the booths, and in
the middle of that it was 11, so time for me to leave. But
this is the best part. I punch out, get my jean overcoat
thing, and as I'm heading towards the door he's standing
right there, and we talk a little. He sais that he is
serious, that we should do this. And in the mean time I'm
taking off my work shirt, I got a normal one under, and I
don't know where to lay down my work shirt for the time
being. So I can put on my jacket so I tell him to hold it
for me, and toss it his way. He cracks a joke while I put
on my jacket, hands me back my shirt, extends his hand for
a handshake, and pulls me in, while he himself goes in
close to me. He kisses me on the cheek, and me being
interested in him, do so in return. So as I'm leaving,
George comes in through that same door, and Victor says we
should do it. We should go out.

So that's my long story made short. Well not really. Now I
just gotta tell him yes, but I'll tease him about it first,
and play hard to get slightly. Like I'll say, that the only
reason he probably wants to go out with me is cause I said
I'll pay for myself. I just hope that comment won't end up
in some kind of financial conversation. Movies would be
nice though. Besides, I've been wanting to have someone to
cuddle with in a movie theatre for a while. What movie
would we see though? Maybe underworld again? I wonder what
this will be like. Technically this is my first date. A
real one. Other than that I just gotta tell my parents, I
think I'll tell dad first, he seen him, that this guy from
work will pick me up from theatre and we'll go to see a
movie and eat. He might definately not mind, since he
wouldn't have to pick me up then. And that would be good.
Till next time though, ciao.


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