thea

the semi-secret life of thea
2003-09-24 01:18:18 (UTC)

well, this is new

So today i had an actual discussion about eating
disorders with my friend jess. Jess has been my best friend
for 10 years, (this is year number 11). Jess is also pretty
overweight, and i am pretty underweight, so we usually
don't talk about anything to do with size. But the thing
is, as long as i've known her, i've never noticed her size.
I just don't see it. I see her. She's such an amazing
person. Funny, crazily smart, beautiful, kind, she's like a
freaking angel. Anyhoo, back to the point.
We somehow started talking about eating disorders. She
went on to say that she feels like making all
anoretics/bulimics just, better. And when they're better,
she's going to smack them for being so stupid (you have to
know jess to understand that this was not all creul and
stuff. She didn't mean it jokingly, but you just have to
know her personality in order to get it and stuff).
It was weird. I, of course, did not mention anywhere
in this conversation that i starve myself, purge meals,
etc., lest she accuse me of being inflicted with one of
these diseases(which would just turn into a huge mess and a
big misunderstanding). Hmmm, i must talk with other people
and see what they think on restriction and stuff. *strokes
chin*.
Yeah, so i haven't cut in a week now. It's weird,
cause i'm not trying not to or anything. I just, haven't.
Hrmmmm.
So, errr, i've decided to get to 110 by three sundays
from last. I'm at 116-117 now. I can do this. T'is easy
peasy. But i have a feeling that i'm not going to be able
to, then i'll be all sad and jazz. Gee wiz
Welp, g'day to you and yours, ~just thea




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