a chick called Sam

I am sam's inner thoughts
2003-09-19 12:02:14 (UTC)

sleep depravation

Grrrrrr, I'm at my witts end.

I've just wrote a letter of my situation to my counseller.
I have no idea what to do anymore, this was the last thing
that I could think of.

The letter-

Karen, I'm in dire need of some help. I've found myself in
a situation that I can't seem to get out of.

I've been having extreem difficulty attending college this
week, not as a result from my problem, neither the flu,
but my family.

The past few days of truancy are due to a lack of sleep,
and constant arguements. My family, for some reason
unknown to me, have a disturbed sleeping arrangment. The
remain awake during the night and early morning and sleep
during the day or sometimes evening. Although, I believe
my mother has very little, or almost no sleep at all.

This past week, I have been reduced to tears, as I have
been forced to also maintain a disturbed sleeping pattern.

On several occasions I have requested that I'd like them
to be fairly quiet from 10:00pm onwards, so I can attempt
near eight hours sleep. In reality I've only been
achieving six or less, tending to be the less, and even
those few hours are not of steady sleep. During the course
of every night this week I have not only been kept up, but
I have been woken several times during the course of the
morning.

The other night I woke up to my mother hammering and
relaying the floor in the living room, which my bedroom is
directly above.

I can put up with constant arguements and bickering, but
sleep is important to me, it's my only retreat. And I need
to attend college. I've tried attending college with very
little sleep, but I was left with a severe headache almost
all day, and was emperiencing problems with my eyes.

I've asked them to allow me sleep, politely, angrily,
agressively, I've pleaded, I've begged. Nothing works.
They know that I already suffer from insomnia and that I
have no door (my brother smashed it down) to block out the
sound.

I don't know what to do, I feel like I'm loosing myself
again."




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