acidhouse420

420 Log
2003-09-19 10:16:01 (UTC)

Lethargy

Friday, September 19, 2003 5:10am CST

Yup. Probably been awhile again. I didn't even look this
time, it's kinda futile I guess.

So another job has passed me by. Another useless waste of
my time and emotional energy. Ah, but it also brings us
another opportunity and another experience. The trick is
perhaps learning from it this time. Fear paralyzes me
constantly tho, and I'm not sure I want the change. Change
is good they tell me...eep I say.

Blur of drugs money boredom, days into days into
days...seasons into seasons. Life just keeps right on
going and going. I Find it odd. Stops for nothing,
nothing at all. People die, yet they continue
fighting...still ignorance, etc. Blah.

So I guess the question now is what do i really want to do
with myself? What am I good at? What do I like? What do
i have the confindence to pull off? Especially in my ever
reclusive state. Seems to be increasing all the time.

yeh, that's about all i can muster in this odd state I'm
in...this tired, but not so tired, lethargic kinda mood...




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