munkyweasel

Radical Belligerence
2003-09-18 03:51:14 (UTC)

Progress and retrogression/SHE DESTROYS ME

Thursday, September 17 2003

Overall, today was a good day.

Wore JNCOs and Black-and-white checkered socks, and an
undershirt.

My dad woke up right as I was out the door. I was so tired.

I wonder why older men like to display their shirtless
bodies to the world. No one wants to see that, dad. Or
neighborguy. Or guy down the street. Or any old guys.

The moon looked so pretty, framed by a vortex of clouds. I
wish I had had a camera.

Bus, yeah whatever.

Gothic chicks, yeah whatever.

In first period, we will be having a sub for the rest of
the week. When Morgan came in the class, I was like "Hi!"
and she looked at me weird but said hi.

Second period, Jessica was back! Oh and I noticed that that
one gothic chick has cuts all along her fingers. But I get
all this extra attention for having black fingernails?

Third period, took a (an extremely hard) test and then we
had to draw cows using one of the isms. So I used Satanism,
but that isn't an economic system. Plus the teacher would
freak.

Lunch, nothing really great happened. Well, I hugged
Jessica. And they made me feel bad by saying I was a
typical guy. But oh well.

Health, took self-notes on endocrine system and then had to
decode a paper that was like dyslexic or something. I don't
know how to explain. It was written by a dyslexic, and it
was how we would see stuff if we were dyslexic.

Walking to English, something happened but I don't remember
and it's not important.

English, I am doing bad in for some reason. I always seem
to do the wrong thing on the assignments.

Comp apps I was boutta fall asleep man.

Walking to spanish, I saw a big black kid wearing a light
pink shirt and hot pink shoelaces. Totally sweet.

Spanish, we went over that big longass work packet, I got
to say that I am from Finland. In Spanish. It was fun.

Dismissal. I didn't give a fuck. Saw Misfits girl, was
gonna pull the line but whatever.

Bus. Kidz pissed me off so. So Ashley said of her STUPID
FUCKING FRIEND Kayla "She has a boyfriend, and she wouldn't
go out with a little freshman anyway." (Ashley is in 8th,
this is what sucks about LPA.) So I said "Why what grade is
she in?" "8th" and yeah well she totally dissed me. So I
said "next year" and all that, and that's where I made the
mistake of drawing it out instead of shutting the fuck up
and just accepting that leaving middle school cursed me for
a year, even from 8th graders. And they pulled some shit
like the damn 8th graders could kick the asses of the 9th
graders even when the 8th graders are freshmen... stupid
shit like that. Attempts at clarification don't help, nor
do attempts at holding in the tears.

Went online, IMed Katie and she didn't reply.

Talked to Tony.

Went to guitar lesson, I was gonna bring my amp to see
what's wrong with the foot switch, but my dad didn't get
home to take me till... oh, WHEN IT STARTED.
- that one kid who has played for 4 years and has his
lesson right after mine is really good
- Eddie's band (specifically Eddie) wrote a really great
song, it sounds like Evanescence and like Linkin Park, only
they were playing before any of the nu-metal bands.
- Talked about owning land, owning guns, and the murder
rate of Norway
- I wore my DSC shirt

I went home. I hung out with my sister at the end of the
street. Only the second time I've ever been there.

Went back in my room, talked to Hopper and Ana. Tried
calling Jamie, she was at Katie's; tried calling Katie,
they were working on their project.

I got online. So much fucking drama. I wasn't mad at Katie
(at school), then I was (when I IMed her earlier and she
didn't say anything), then I forgave her. Now I was. Next
time I IM her it's just gonna be like "it's over". That
might even be while Matt is here and he can add something
like "yeah you whore" or whatever. And Summyz intervened
and I think it's for the better that she did, even though I
yelled at her.

Brutal Honey was really nice to me.

Took a shower, listened to BR while writing this and doing
a little stupid homework. I am still not done with it. It
is almost midnight.

I have come to the conclusion, yes I know
that the time has come to break it off
yeah.

Make the most of life. Most. Don't let this world drag you
down.




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