jonathanlawson

Rantings of a Madman
2003-09-17 08:40:21 (UTC)

that last entry came out bad, lol

I probably come off sounding depressed in that last
entry or something... not really my intention, but it
happens. Anyway, it's 1:17 in the morning now, and i am in
fact still up, lol, although i have to get up early to take
michael to school. Nothing new to report really, just felt
like writing, so let's pick a nice topic. how bout... this
summer, i guess, lol. It seems like it's been a pretty
good summer, as far as they go for me. Especially after
last years, which was pure boredom. This one actually kept
me interested despite being longer. Perhaps it was the
hope of moving on when it was over or just the knowledge
that i wouldn't have to go back to that routine known as
high school. Maybe i just actually did more stuff, which
is the most likely candidate. Playing tennis, seeing
various people, going on that trip, having 4 AM
conversations, some longer than that.... cuz i remember the
sun coming up. i'm pretty sure i've made a few lasting
memories, such as getting hit by that car while trying to
sleep in mine, lol, and pretty much that whole trip, also
matt's comment about wishing he had "something", lol. Wow,
that sure came out of nowhere when we were driving back to
my house from tennis, lol. I think i'm traumatized for
life because of it. There are a few things i still want to
do, and a few people i didn't get to see, but maybe next
year or on one of the breaks when i'm back. People just
seem to fade away though, although i wish they wouldn't,
maybe i'll be able to talk to them again soon, i should
probably just call them, one especially, it seems like it's
been forever and we used to be such good friends. Someone
yell at me and make me call her, lol. hmmm, things are
sure going to be different the next time i come back around
here. kinda weird to think about, kinda scary in a way,
we're all just going to change. But i've accepted it, i'm
already changing into SOMEONE as it is, let's see what
happens when i go away, lol. PS: by the time we're
roomies, we'll be the same person, LOL, that should make
things easier....

Song for now: "letters to you" by Finch... "do you
notice i'm gone? where do you run to so far away? i want
you to know that, i miss you, i miss you so, i want you to
know that, i miss you, i miss you so..."

No quotes now since this is the 2nd entry tonight, too
bad, i know how much you all look forward to them... okay,
just one, lol, "some of these guys got a bad attitude, skip"




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