thea

the semi-secret life of thea
2003-09-16 02:00:48 (UTC)

happy, but not.

So i've been looking foward to seeing five iron frenzy
(very good band, go listen to them, NOW.) tomorrow. I've
been looking foward to this for months. However, i'm not
happy. Sure, i'm happy that i'll be going to a concert,
missing school and all that jazz, but i'm not happy on the
inside. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I
should be all skippy yay yay and stuff. Things appear to be
going "well" in my life. And yet, nothing is well. Nothing
is alright. And it never will be, because no matter how
many good things happen to me, i will always have the same
mindset and always be dying on the inside. And there's
nothing i can do about this. There's nothing i WANT to do
about this. If i die, so be it. If i live, fine, whatever.
Anything goes, really. I can fake life pretty darn well,
might as well keep it up.
Anyhoo, i think i'm off to cut or something. *shrug*.
G'day kids, ~just thea




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