Eyes of a fallen angel

Just another Disturbance
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2003-09-14 14:57:20 (UTC)

What a Waste of Time it all is...

The way i look at life
its just a waste of time
how can i truely contribute to this unknown world around me
I put down others in my attempt at happiness
I take my anger and frustration out on the actions i intake
so many ways have i screwed up in life
i shouldn't have taken the blade and placed it against my
skin for the first time but i did
i shouldn't have indured the pain and suffering of my
father but i did
i should't have taken the first hit of it but i did
i shouldn't have let my guard down when i needed it the
most but i did
i shouldn't have ever said those 3 sacred words but i did
i shouldn't have let anyone into the life i leed but i did
i shouldn't have gotten close to her because in the end i
knew she would leave me but i did
i shouldn't have let anyone become my friend so i couldn't
screw anyone over but i did
i shouldn't have let him do that to me but i did
There are so many things i wish i could turn around and
redo but i didn't
I hold a life of regrets
A life filled with I should have done this or i shouldn't
have done that
A life filled with the thought of but i did it.
Do you see why life is a waste of time
I dont plan on picking up that knife again and placing it
across my skin and pushing lightly to endure the pain, but
I do plan on making my life easier and have less of those
intense painful thoughts and memories pour into my head
everyday.

JoRdAn


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