csadler

random mumblings
2003-09-13 00:21:16 (UTC)

RIP Johnny Cash :(

this is just a reminder for myself that a good man died on
this day. a man who's music helped me through a lot of
tough times this summer. cash showed me what "cool"
is...country isn't cool, but cash is. one of my favorite
songs - "in my life" is off cash's "the man comes around".
i didn't even know it was a beatles cover for a while.
also, he made me a little more spiritual and religious. i
bought "american IV : the man comes around", the first time
i ever heard his cover of NIN's "Hurt". it had been at
least 3 years since i purchased a cd, partially because of
the internet. you can definitely tell it's a country CD
but most of the songs are good music, and that's a big
deal. also "a boy named sue" is cool, no matter what year
you listen to it. his wife, june carter, died in june so
it's possible that he just died of loneliness. it's
possible, i can imagine the same thing happening to me :(
i know i've probably listed these lyrics before but i think
they're worth going over again. i'm sure he has great
original stuff, but i only have his latest cd so i can only
go by that...these are great though, i can imagine that
lennon and mccartney would be proud ;)

hurt (NIN cover)

i hurt myself today
to see if i still feel
i focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a whole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but i remember everything

what have i become?
my sweetest friend...
everyone i know
goes away
in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt

i wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
i cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
i am still right here ;)

what have i become?
my sweetest friend...
everyone i know
goes away
in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt

if i could start again
a million miles away
i would keep myself
i would find a way

all my life (beatles cover)

there are places i'll remember
all my life, though some have changed
some forever, not for better
some have gone, and some remain
all these places have their moments
with lovers and friends
i still can recall
some are dead and some are living
in my life, i've loved them all

but of all these friends and lovers
there is no one
compares with you
and these memories lose their meaning
when i think of love
as something new
though i know i'll never lose affection
for people and things, that went before
i know i'll often stop and think about them
in my life, i love you more

though i know i'll never lose affection
for people and things that went before
i know i'll often stop and think about them
in my life, i love you more ;)

in my life, i love you more

not that johnny cash was a personal hero of mine or
anything like that, but i'm sure he was a hero of a
previous generation. must be weird when a hero dies. who
is my hero? my father maybe? magic johnson? patrick
ewing? billy corgan? my brother? it must be really weird
when your hero dies...i remember feeling very mortal when i
found out that magic had aids, man that was a long time
ago...1990? anyways, i'm gonna stop thinking about death
for this evening because the idea that life is finite
scares me because that means that every second i spend
sitting in front of this idiot box, is one second i'm
wasting ;) anyways, good night all




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