im feeling more alone, than i ever have before..
uugghhh... it was a good day. but now im tired and i have
so much fucking work to do and im trying to ignore this
feeling at least until im finished.. I DONT WANT TO HEAR
ABOUT THAT FUCKING BITCH... i dont get mad at her but just
at the thought of that fucking cunt I really truly HATE HER
and i dont know why thats so hard to understand fucking UGH.
im going to go smoke one and finish this paper. im
irritated that i get this upset about shit when im trying
to get shit done, and im irritated that its late and i cant
go to sleep. even though i probably wouldnt until she
left, i dont like not being able to.
but this new shirt feels nice. lol. im becoming so
he hasnt called me. i feel a little guilty because i think
i have really been hurting his feelings lately. but then,
sometimes i think he doesnt have any feelings to hurt. and
hes hurt mine a million times. but its really hard to be
alone when shes there with that bitch and i okay i dont
even know im having a weak moment because I HATE THAT
FUCKING BITCH AND I WISH SHE WOULD DISAPPEAR so i can stop
thinking about her with MY girl when im sitting here and i
fucking WANT TO SCREAM why cant i let this go she doesnt
need this anymore than i do and she doesnt want it and its
driving me nuts LET IT GO YOU FUCKING IDIOT WHY CANT
I....... haha well i knew i couldnt
make it through a day without crying. good one. smoke.