Fatalzero22

The Adventures Of Cody Jenkins
2003-09-08 22:45:41 (UTC)

A penny for your thoughts....

Well today has just been a lay around day all in all.. I
didnt go to school cuz if i did mrs lain was going to make
me sign up for classes do to the fact that i havent turned
in my co op papers yet lol.... My bad So since ive been
borred all day except for when playing zelda, which ian
let me borrow, gotta love that kid.... Ive had a lot of
time to think... and uhh sleep
Of course ive used all my free time to think about cara
for the most part, well that and being a senior... These
are pretty much the only things i think about no adays...
Trying to figure out what to do after this year..When
everything changes and all the stability is ripped away
from my life.. when i venture into a time where my friends
and me arent forced to go to a predefinded meeting place
every day....what will it in fact be like.. Will i see
them at all? will we hang out more... Or will we part
going our seperat ways, only to be alone in various areas
and make new friends...i guess its anyones gues, but i
know as for me im going to do my best to keep in touch,
cuz i know i have the best friends i could ask for, and i
dont want new ones i wnat to keep the good ones i have...
cuz we all know a good friends is hard to come by today...
and i cant see that changing tommarow... Well other that
slamin myself with billions of questions about shit i
really dont understand yet, i sit and think about Cara...
Whats shes doing, hows shes doing, and so forth... I
havent talked to her since the week after she left realy
when she called me... Ive called her since but i get a lot
of voice mail and when she does answer she is at work and
working till 11 30 there which is 2 30 here, and im
usually past out by then... This is realy no suprise to me
tho, i mean i knew she would go back and forget about all
of us here, when she gets back around her real friends.. i
mean who woudlent right, why sit and dwell on how much you
miss people when you could just push it aside and confide
in what you have around you... Im sure shes datin someone
else and hes way cooler and hotter than me,and she
actually has fun with him, and they go out to parties and
stuff, unlike the nights we spent together watching movies
and such.... Im sure when she comes back things will be
weird... i cant deny that i was the happies ive ever been
when she left,not becuase she was leaving but yea know cuz
i had go to spend all that time with her...and i know when
i see her again ill fall right back in that, complete
dramatic love with her as i was before... but then i will
question where she still feels the same, after a year of
hanging out with guys twice as cool and hot as me.... will
she see me as just a person to hang out with whiles hes
here, or just a compromise, cuz she dosent know enough
people to really hang out to much with anyone else?....
and in the end after this summer when the star light
fades,and the fire finally dies down... when the last warm
breeze blows threw her hair, and i kiss her forehead one
last time... it will be the last time i see her... and
somehow between now and that day... i have to accept
that....

-Cody, A senior whos not ready to leave-




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