Halow Effect

The Nile's Edge
2003-09-06 21:48:11 (UTC)

Saturday

gus turns twenty on tuesday. ...and saima turns 19. i told
myself i wouldn't think about it, but it enters my mind
every few seconds. the thought, the memory of her doesn't
go deep at all though. amazing. i had no clue i was capable
of total apathy. but i still think about tim too...every
january 5th, i think, "hey, tim's a year older." and jayson
too...march 21st rolls around and 'boom'...jayson's 23 now.

maybe it's because i'm great with remembering birthdays.

i think the worry of money and getting by has gone numb for
the time being. i have laundry going. i love laundry, when
it's done. feels like...a new start.

and i did my nails. i cut them real short and buffed them
down...rounded and glossed them. one little touch and i
feel like a million bucks.

i could go back to bed, i don't think i'm done sleeping.
unless that's my room mate walking into the
apartment...wait for it...no. it's not here. thank goodness.




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