Angel

I saw him

There is a lot to be said and written about the last weeks,
but Im gonna pick out one that happend lately.
Last week I was going home afther my class at university,
usaly Im going to my boyfriend Tommy, but since my grandma
came all the way from abord that week I went home.
I had to change bus on the way, and when I walked in to the
second bus I sow him sitting somewere back in the bus, him
S*.
I was shocked, diddnt know what to do, but I sat dom a bit
in front in the bus, and I admit I looked back a fre times,
but most at the time I focused on not look like a freak and
behave.
Later I decided that if it ever happend agen I would walk
though him an sit somewhere behand him. Im my was to pass
him I should smile and maybe say hi, to check his reaction,
but not start to talk or anyting, cause I dont know where I
have him, are he angry with me? does he want to talk to me?
does he want us to have contact at all etc.

Friday (yesterday) I was going out to dance, Tommy did as
usaly not want to go out with me, I didnt drink, did not
meet anyone I knew!! and there was no one who could come
with me. The only thing I did was to talk to this woman who
is a freind of my nighbour and the I sat in the car of a
friend of me and talked for 15 minutes before he had to go
home and iron a shirt til a wedding today.
I went to my old club, but it was not as crowded as normal,
no one I`d liked t dance with, some strangers form a nother
contry tryed to hit at me all the time (they are dark
collord, and Im a werry tall and long hair, dark blond
hair, somting they love)
I danced for a while before I decided to to it, I had been
thinking about it earlier in the evneing, but told my self
not to, I knew that it would men trubble, but stil I did
it, I sendt a message to S* wondering if he was out to?

He answred me!!! That was all I needed actually, he wassent
in the same town as me, and he was leaving on Tuesday to go
back to his University..
I took the bus back to Tommy at 2, and when I went inside I
tokk the phone of, I knew S* would probobly call and with
S* in bed with me that would only mean truble.

It would be nice to have talked to him yes, but it was not
worth it, I would not let Tommy go because of my courosity.
S* answerd me an that was all I needed for now.
I did not think that he would send me anymessages today,
not so early while he was sil sober anyway. But about 3am I
got a message if I was going out tonight.
I didnt answer it before afther a hour, I used to get som
thrilled and answer at once before, I was happy for the
message, for what it meant for us, and since today has not
been one of the best days in my life (another story) it
helped.
Imade up a story that I had this thing to do, I allready
had a comittment to Tommy and Emma today. I could and would
not cansel it for S*, that would be wrong.

So hes leaving now, will probobly not be home agen before
christmas, maybe I`ll meet him then. I got my answer even
though I didnt asked him, an that is all I need for now.

Love Angel