mag6607

My life, A soap opera....Sometimes....
2003-09-06 04:11:18 (UTC)

I'm the only one she listens to...

Current mood: Kinda pissed...
Heyhey,
"We're all out of second chances and all out of one more
times... Theres not a word we havent said nothing we have
not tried... My bones are aching from the weight im holding
down, I took all that im taking, Im breaking....breaking
down. One Mississippi I close my eyes, Two Mississippi Im
beggin' you and we can still survive, Three Mississippi No
looking back, Gone for good and i know that, I wont Change
my mind..."-That describes how i feel

Whats up? Not alot here...I'm kinda upset... If you are
Kelly Peter, Kelly cock, Carrie or anyone else you have
noticed that Stephanie has changed alot. I mean i have been
there thru EVERYTHING for her this summer, I was even there
before school got out and before summer started, back when
Ricky cheated on her with Karen, I TOLD HER!!! ME! No one
else would... I was there for her to cry on and to hold
her. When she needed me, I was there...I was there when
they broke up and got back together...Repeated times. I
went with her to P.P. to get her thing. I have done alot of
shit for her. Then when school starts for her to just blow
me off...That PISSES Me OFF because it has been happening
for a year...little by little... I don't want to say this,
but alot of it has to do with Ricky...Ever since she
started dating him, she has dropped almost all her
friends... Plus this whole Sarah thing because Steph likes
Sarah and K. Peter hates her... Like literally hates her...
Also over the summer she did a few things that i REALLY
don't approve of like getting drunk, and smoking pot...I
mean, I don't want to lose her as a friend because i need
her, and we ALL know she needs me...! I'm the only one she
listens too... I just don't know what to do anymore... We
have been friends since like 6th grade... I don't need to
lose her now. I always figured we would be friends after we
graduated and now... Its all getting f*ed up... It makes me
sad that were no longer all a group hanging out together
and eating lunch... I just don't know what to do... Should
i give up, Or keep going... Cause i don't know if i can...
But when i see her, I know that she needs me, because
without me nagging at her to get off a cars trunk, and
being the little voice in her head when she goes to a party
(Even though i don't know if i have had that much effect on
her cause it doesn't actually seem like it!) Without me she
has no one to be there for her when she needs them... And i
suppose thats gonna end up being me...
Love,
*~MELISSA~*(The girl who doesn't know how much she affects
people until situations like this happen)




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