psychomagnet

sleeptodreamher
2003-09-05 02:20:44 (UTC)

whenever im alone with you

you make me feel like i am free again..

however far away i will always love you
however far i stray i will always love you
whatever words i say i will always love you
i will always LOVE YOU

ughhhhh make it go away

i dont know how this happens to me

i was excited all day all week actually to see her. i was
like is it thursday yet is it thursday yet. fucking.

but now i feel even worse than i did. i just wanted her to
stay and not leave and we could be happy and run away and I
HATE THAT FUCKING BIG ASS NASTY BITCH I FUCKING HATE HER
WHY DID I TELL HER ABOUT THAT FUCKING JOB IN THE FIRST
PLACE AAGHH

Give me a reason why I can't feel my heart
Everytime you leave my side, I just fall apart

Because I miss you, and this is all I wanna say
I guess I miss you, beautiful
These three words have said it all

It sounds ridiculous, but when you leave a room
There's a part of me that just wants to follow you

Because I miss you
And this is all I wanna say
I guess I miss you, beautiful
These three words have said it all


ugh. ugh. i cant even. say anything. and i just wanted
to kiss her arm that makes me so angry and so sad and i
AAAAAAAGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. and i tried so hard to not
act like an idiot all night and then what. i have no
composure. fuck it. just fuck it. i was excited all day.
like when i woke up i thought. oh yay. fuck it. maybe im
wrong i thought she didnt really care for her like she did
for me but maybe im just wrong and believing what i want to
believe. fuck it i said. fuck it.

is it just like i HAVE to fuck everything up for myself and
everyone else? and then when its too late realize it? or
what? or what? what the fuck. and now she doesnt care
anymore and why should she?

he better not even fucking CALL ME. i dont want to fucking
talk to him i hate him even more now AGHHH FUCK IT I SAID

claudias coming over to calm my ass down i guess and then
im going to bed early. i just.
AGHGHGAHAGHAHGAHAHGAHAAAAAAAGHGGGGGHHHHHH FUCK FUCK
FUCK

at least I have the sense to sense whats coming
and realize that good things never come to those
who WAIT TOO LONG