ShadowDawn

aRegretfulSerenity
2003-09-05 00:44:11 (UTC)

treasure map

wow, its been awhile since i wrote an entry. probly cuz i
had nuffin 2 say, like usual. 52 entries (53 including this
one), all about feelings or opinions. no typical stories...
i dunno. i juss dont like writin about how my day went er
describing what that trip or vacation wz like. it seems
kinda superficial, u kno? its just not worth the paper or,
in this case, the memory space to write about the same
thing ud talk about with ur friends on a daily basis. its
redundant and pointless. especially if u intend for ur
friends to read it. my diary thing is meant for sumthing
more than just talking without saying anything.
thats wht i do here. i SAY sumthing, sumthing that needs
to be said, an idea that needs to take form, an opinion i
would never say otherwise...
i use this diary as a window of the outside world to my
soul, my inner thoughts, the hidden workings of my deep
consciousness. this is where i record my rites of passage
and my realizations of life and myself. this is where i
keep my reasons and motives. this is where i map my psyche
and lay it out for all to see. unfortuneately, no one seems
to realize the treasure i set b4 them.
for most people, the only way that theyre ever gonna
understand sumone else and figure out wht hes thinking is
by taking courses and training in psychology and other
behavior science crap. of course, none of my friends are
into that and only a few show any natural talent in it
either. but u see, they dont have to kno any of that bc not
only do i blatantly TELL them wht im thinking, i also
explain WHY!
WHAT MORE COULD YA ASK FOR!?
either they never understand it, or they never care enuff
2 read it. a few do both, but theyre never the ones that
need to! so writing out all my thoughts for everyone is
pretty much useless...
*sigh*
oh well. i can still use all this as a primary source for
psychological research on adolsecence later in my life... u
kno... when im actually doing sumthing with it...

*Untill 2marroW*
~MaxWood~




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