so i was exhausted/ tired...
so i was exhausted/ tired. sleepy . mcanns had aug
birthdayn night so bro and aug baby friends went to go
drink for free.
rita, my best friend, one of em, was all googly eyed over
this guy the whole time , dude she met 2 thursdays ago.
AN EX CON
4 YEARS IN JAIL FOR ARMED ROBBERY
NEVER FINSIHED HIGH SCHOOL
HAD NOTHING INTERESTING TO SAY
HAD HER NUMBER FOR A WEEK AND NEVER CALLED
so many strikes agaisnt him. nothing. he was a nothing. a
shit head loser. i havent been this angry in ages. well,
i cant believe she can even breathe the same air as this
nothing loser asshole. you have never spoken to a more
boring, lifeless, loser fellow.
and she was SMITTEN
i dont know?
the lure that hes been in jail? a street kid?
i wanted, really, to club her over the head with bat.
she got pissed at me. said, chill, sara. i like him,
and i was like... HOW CAN YOU TELL ME I SHOULDNT BE TALKING
TO CHRIS WHEN YOU ARE ALL OVER THIS ASSHOLE?
chris , at least, was a normal human being to my friends
and family. he at least made them laugh, paid attention to
them, was entertaining, smart and funny. everyone liked
him. because he was a PERSON. and yeah he did shitty things
to me and yeah i shouldnt still be talknig to him, but at
least he was above all else a human being, one who feels
rita, on the other hand, wants some asinine rebel
nonconformist bullshit. she thinks robbing banks is cool.
this is her standard of living, and this LOSER was all
happy that she accepted that and still liked him. which i
couldve accepted if he seemed at all like a PERSON. but he
WASNT. he just seemed like a LOST DIRECTIONLESS STUPID
BORING UGLY SOUL. and i am good at recognizing the souls of
others, and yes my jjudgemtn is harsher when my friends
romantic interests are at hand, but whatever. WARNING
SIGNS. and any girl , with any self respect, would adhere
to these signs.
its true, all my friends say i shouldnt stilll be talking
to chris but AT LEAST I KNOW THEY ARE RIGHT. at least i
dont get mad at them for tellling me so. like she got mad
at me tonight. she said "you dont like him do you?" and
what could i say but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO i think he
SUCKS. dont waste your TIME.
we all just waste TIME
we waste our YOUTH
our precious youthful numbered years, worrying and
stressing and being sad about BULLSHIT MEANINGLESS MEMBERS
OF THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT DO NOT APPRECIATE WHO WE ARE/
if they are not thinking and treating you the way you know
in your heart you ARE
if they have nothing to offer you
and i always try to remind myself:
when you dont know the answers, your friends are the
closest ones to you that know your answers for you. you
only need to trust in them. but that is why they are your
friends to begin with.