csadler

random mumblings
2003-08-18 23:12:29 (UTC)

stupid life

well today sucked...i really think i need to go back on
happy pills because there's no need for me to feel like
shit constantly. the day went quick but i felt like
absolute garbage all day...i need a hug :(

here's a little bit of "the cure" for the readers ;)

"a letter to elise"

oh elise it doesn't matter what you say
i just can't stay here every yesterday
like keep on acting out the same
the way we act out
every way to smile
forget
and make-believe we ever needed
any more than this
any more than this

oh elise it doesn't matter what you do
i know i'll never really get inside of you
to make your eyes catch fire
the way they should
the way the blue could pull me in
if they only would
if they only would
at least i'd lose this sense of sensing something else
that hides away
from me and you
they're worlds to part
with aching looks and breaking hearts
and all the prayers your hands can make
oh i just take as much as you can throw
and then throw it all away
oh i throw it away
like throwing faces at the sky
like throwing arms round
yesterday
i stood and stared
wide-eyed in front of you
and hte face i saw looked back
the way i wanted to
but i just can't hold my tears away
the way you do

elise believe i never wanted this
i thought this time i'd keep all of my promises
i thought you were the girl i always dreamed about
but i let the dream go
and the promises broke
and the make-believe ran out...

oh elise it doesn't matter what you say
i just can't stay here every yesterday
like keep on acting out the same
the way we act out
every way to smile
forget
and make-believe we never needed
any more than this
any more than this

and every time i try to pick it up
like falling sand
as fast as i pick it up
it runs away through my clutching hands
but there's nothing else i can really do
there's nothing else i can really do
there's nothing else i can really do at all

great song! download it and see for yerself if you haven't
heard it before. also, i downloaded "freddy v. jason"
because i'll be damned if i'm gonna shell out $12 to see
that when i can get it for free, and for some reason it
won't play on my computer, and i'm not sure why