Woodsmoke

Montana bound
2003-08-08 06:38:05 (UTC)

Just fucking wonderful

Alright, I'm going on a pity trip here, so if you don't
like it you can go fuck yourself, I honestly couldn't care
less.

I just received the crushing blow. First I lost Alyssa.
Then I lost Kara. Then, I lost my chance with Allison.
Now, I've just been informed by Josiah that Jessica has a
boyfriend. Life just keeps getting better and better.

I'm not angry that she has a boyfriend, but I am upset that
she lied to me, as well as witheld that information from
me. She's my friend, damn it! True, we did do things of a
sexually pleasing nature with each other, but she should
know by now that she is first and foremost my friend, not a
sex toy. There is very little in my life that I value more
than her. Not just her body. I value our friendship, I am
intrigued by her mind and personality; I care for HER, not
just her sexual organs! We've been through so much shit in
the years we've known each other. She should know by now
that she can tell me these things! It's not going to kill
me to hear she has a boyfriend, and thus is no longer able
to provide me with physical gratification. I may a little
while to get used to the idea and cope with it, but I'll
get over it! I'm really disappointed that she thinks she
can't tell me something like this to my face, instead
trusting it to a third party.

I just hope I can speak with her tomorrow and try to work
this out. No matter what happens, I still count her as my
friend, and I hope she sees me the same way. I almost lost
her to my own stupidity before, I don't want to let her
make that same mistake.


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