Sarah

I Cry Tears Of Blood
2003-08-04 04:38:42 (UTC)

Nothingness

I think all my nothingness is gone....Kapoot. Buh-bye.
Which I'm taking to be a good sign. *grins* Because to feel
nothing is to not be alive in this world...You have to
love, and hurt, and feel to get along in life. Yanno?

My dad is so lucky he keeps his door locked at night...Or
else I would have murdered him nurmerous times before now.
This time he's making me go to my grammas. *shakes fist at
ceiling above her* I don't really want to go back, but he's
forcing me to. Bluch.

On a happier note, Beau is talking to me again. He was kind
of mad that I didn't consult him when I heard what he said.
Now he won't tell me why he said it. *shouts "Evil!" and
points finger at him* Meanie. *sniffs* He said maybe he'd
tell me someday...But maybe he wouldn't have to. It's
alright. I forgive him for breaking my heart and giving me
the courage to get out of a fantasy world. *chuckles* Funny
as that may sound, I guess I thank him. For freeing
me...Letting me live in the real world. Not all dreams and
fantasy's come true you know, only if you try really hard.

Maybe something can come of this pitiful life. What do you
think? Somehow, someway, I think I can survive better now.
Thanks to some certain somebodies. You know who you are.
Thank you.

And I have to give a special thank you and love to
David....If it weren't for you...Gads, I don't know where
I'd be....But you know, I'm always here for you if you have
need of me, just like you are for me. Yanno what? This is
starting to sound like the thank you part of a record album
book. *laughs* Oh well. Just wanted to give credit where
credit is due.




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