gcbaby4life420

my life
2003-08-03 21:27:49 (UTC)

bedo :)

lol ya this entry's kinda diff from the last one.
Bedo called me about 20 minutes after the last entry.
i was really happy.
we actually had a nice conversation this time. we talked
for like 2 or 3 hours.
and for a change...most of the time we actually talked.

there were some parts where he was like rapping to his
songs, and like talking to his friends.
but for the most part we actually talked. it was nice. and
we didnt even get into ONE fight. not once! lol

yeah he was cool this time, he still likes me which is
good. he kept asking me why i didnt like him anymore and
why i wouldnt ever go out with him again.
i kept telling him that i dont know where hes getting that
stuff cuz its not true.
he was being cool tho, calling me beautiful and he said he
loved me again. and yeah i dunno it was a erally good
convo.

i told him that i didnt think he liked me anymore. and he
asked why.
i said cuz he used to call me like 5 or 6 times a day, and
now he only calls me once....not even once sometimes.
he said if thats the only reason i think he doesnt like me
then im weird.

he was being so cute and so cool and of course i like him
again.
which SUCKS. cuz sometimes i think that things would just
be better if we never talked to each other again.
cuz i mean...at first it would kill me, i would have SUCH
a hard time getting over him.

but in the long run.... i think it would be better for me.
ugh i DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT.
well...i want him.
but i want him only if things are gunna be right.

today he said that he still has to go to church with me,
cuz of our deal that we made forever ago. im really
surprised that he brought it up actually. but thats good.
i mean...if i can get him to go to church with me,
idunno...i think things would be alot better.

but ya anyways im out.
o guess what i found out! when yur homeschooled....u have
to be 16 to Drop out of school and u dont need parental
consent!!!
cuz my mom wont fucking let me go to High School no matter
what. so im gunna drop out.
dropping out is better than being homeschooled. im sick of
being homeschooled cuz everyone thinks homeschooled kids
are losers and shit.
im through with that.

so yeah, im still trying to talk my mom into letting me go
to Tartan this year, but if she doesnt let me...im
dropping out.
thats it i decided.
so anyways im out peace it




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