blkdragon

grounded
2003-08-03 05:31:23 (UTC)

Secret Place..her heart

I skated tonight, not the best of nights for it, too much
testosterone; teenagers everywhere! I left the rink early,
Charles broke my reverie and concentration, I worked up a
nice sweat and headed home; he was supposed to meet me.
I parked in the back and left my car thinking about
Nadean, wanting to call her and not wanting to, thought
the sound of her voice would only increase my melancholy
mood. I dialed her number while on my way up the stairs!
She answered the phone, I interrupted her and she was
happy for the interruption. I was merely going to enjoy
the sound of her voice for a moment and let her go back to
what she was doing, she didn't want me to hang up, she
wanted to stay with me awhile and I stayed.
We talked about nothing in particular and I listened to
her relating to her children, her daughter, niece(s) and
nephew. The children seem to want to please her so much,
as do I and she is pleased by them and apparently by me as
well. Ah, the love they share is so refreshing and I so
want to share that with her and them, to be so open and
without fear!
I told her of the visions I've had of our future and she's
told me that she too has imagined a life with me, can't
begin to know what that means to me. I love what I know of
her and I love her as well, by choice, perhaps by design.
I told her that I started not to call because I thought it
might not be good for me, the distance between us being a
disconcerting factor and she said she understood. There
are times when I just want to take a walk with her and
hold her hand, when I want to stand and hug her staring
off into the night, like tonight.
Just think, this morning I was a bit angry with her and
now I seek to dream of her, she doesn't sleep well;
perhaps I can send her a dream, stranger things have
happened, perhaps I'll see you all there as well!
G'nite!




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