Belleh666

48 shades of darkness
2003-08-02 03:39:45 (UTC)

HAPPY?

AM I TRUELY HAPPY?
NO, THAT COULD NEVER BE
TO BE LOVED BY SOMEONE SO THEY COULD USE AND ABUSE YOU
CAN'T TAKE MUCH MORE OF THIS SHIT, IT'S KILLING ME MENTALY
AND PSYCHICALY. WHO DO YOU REALLY LOVE? ME? OR SOME FUCKING
SCUMBAG LOSER ASSHOLE WASTE OF LIFE? YOU REALLY CHOSE ME?
THEN WHAT THE FUCK! WHY YOU LIE ABOUT SHIT I ALL READY KNOW
IS TRUE? YOU WERE THE ONLY PERSON TO MAKE ME TRUELY HAPPY,
NOW YOU LIED AND TORE MY BLACKEND HEART OUT.WE WANTED TO
WORK THINGS OUT CAUSE YOU COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT ME, LOVED
ME AND ONLY ME, AND WANTED TO BE WITH ONLY ME, NOW YOU
JUST WANT TO CHILL AND BE SINGLE,BE BE TOGETHER, BUT NOT
TOGETHER???? MAKE UP YOUR FUCKING MIND AND STOP LIEING TO
ME! WHATS IT GONNNA BE? ME? OR HIM? I HATE YOU FOR DOING
THIS TO ME, BUT I LOVE YO FOR ALL THAT WE'VE SHARED THROUGH
OUT THE YEARS. AM I TURELY HAPPY? I CAN'T SAY, AND WHEN
COULD I EVER HAVE SAID THAT I WAS? I'M NOT AND THEY WAY
LIFE LOOKS FOR ME, I WILL NEVER BE!