ultimateEMOgurl

So much for my happy ending...
2003-07-25 00:51:41 (UTC)

Out with my sister

Well me and my sister went to starbucks and got something
to drink and then we walked down to the park. I think i
really needed this. It was so wonderful to just sit there
and talk with her about everything. I love being with my
sis and talking to her about things going on in my life,
and hearing about hers. We sat on that bench for like a
little more than an hour and there wasnt one bit of
silence. Im gonna miss my sister so much when she moves out
in 6 months. :( She told me something that i really liked
but i cant remember it now. But there is something i did
remember her telling me. I had told her that i care more
about other people, and helping them than helping myself.
And she told me thats because there is too much going on in
my life for me to even start to try and handle, and that i
have a lot of stuff that i havent delt with. And that i do
that as a defense mechanism. Which i really thought about
and its true. I dont like to think about things going on in
my life. Things just happen and i sorta put them in the
back of my mind...yea one day ill explode...but i guess ill
worry about that when that day comes. I love my sister. I
dont know what i would do without her. Shes helped me in so
many ways that i doubt she even knows. Haha she told me
that i wanted to be like her. lol. crazy. but i love how
she comes to her 16 year old sister for advice. lol. she
told me she does that cuz she doesnt have any friends.
hahhahaha. *sigh* Today has been such an insightful day. A
lot of thinking about my life and whats going on. I think
its good to do that every once in a while. But just so long
as you dont dwell on it. Well i gotta get ready for church
now...so later people!




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