GlassPawn

To be perfectly honest, I don t..

To be perfectly honest, I don't feel as if I have myself
together these days. I just ended a two year friendship
just a fews ago. Or at least I think I did. I did it on
purpose because I wasn't getting along with her very well.
Either we both changed or I just never really noticed what
she was really like. She's a nice person, but to me she was
one of those people who you are better off acquantices
with, rather than friends. I don't feel any remorse for
ending the frindship. I think it needed to be done. I just
hoep she will leave me alone. Sarah (the friend) has always
been saying that I'm predictable. Which is true to a
certain extent, but I didn't appreciate her telling me so
because I then felt like I was trapped in this box and I
couldn't move outside of it. I hate feeling that way. Also,
Sarah has told this quote to the yearbook and had said that
I had siad it, but I didn't. What bugged me the most of
this incident was that she never told me about this, she
didn't have the nerve to. And she had no right to do such a
thing, but she did. After that I lost trust in her. I felt
like anything I said to her may not be kept between us. I
just wish to be left alone for a while, or maybe I don't. I
don't know what I need right now. I think I'm just going to
find something to do all the time to take my mind off all
this crap I have in my life. I've done it before and it has
helped to take my mind off my problems. I hope it works, if
it doesn't, then I don't know what I'll do.