*MaNMaDeOFaSHes-

My Perfect Waste of Time
2003-07-23 06:11:37 (UTC)

about everyone except myself

open arms and empty eyes to greet another exhausting day
with a head filled up with lullabys you turn your back the
other way trying to avoid the problems at hand so that you
may forget turning your back on everything said to start all
over again and you have your regrets but your willing to
forget and forgive the persons that created this. And we
know it is all bullshit but everyone was convinced for the
moment. I think that we both were too. Trying to hard to
distract the meaning and forgetting everything we never
knew. and what I dont know could hurt me. and so I chose
my friends wisely but it doesnt mean that I was right. I
wasnt willing to fight. because I would be fighting for
you. And whatever it is you stand for, I assure is nothing
new. Your following along on what you have convinced
yourself is the road less taken. But where ever it is you
think you are going has turned to memories and faded.
Someone has been here before. And they got bored of
pretending. Going along with resistance and looking for a
happy ending. and you notice the people who notice you and
the rest are non existing. so you go home and cry in your
mirror
trying to find some understanding. And you wake in the
morning and dress well preparing yourself for show and tell
for another day to show yourself. And you make your mirror
look pretty but you still know its a self concious prison
cell. and you are fighting yourself so I dont stand by you
and you notice the people who notice you and you live for
the attention in their eyes that are empty like yours
because they are trying to hide.




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