Jenn

Everything and Nothing
2003-07-20 16:46:53 (UTC)

of men and men

so i had a killer crush on bryan. but then he found out
and it seemed to go to his head, and that ended just as
quickly as it began. he would show up and try to play with
my head a little bit. i don't even know if he realizes i'm
so over it all. but then there's joe, bryan's best
friend. joe's the guy everyone wants me to go for, yet
just as many are confused as to why i'm going for him. and
at first it all seemed great. he's just a really nice,
simple guy. and i do like him, i just don't know if he
could keep up with me. that sounds conceited... and i am
mad at myself for thinking it. i'm just too much of a
mover and shaker, i speak in metaphors and on this whole
other level then even the other half of me can comprehend,
so it just leaves him clueless in my wake. and i feel bad
for that. we spent pretty much all last night together.
the more time that passed the less there seemed to be
between us. just no real chemistry, no real connection.
so why force it? i could have been sitting next to my
grandfather and felt more... i dunno... i feel like a
bitch...




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