Nicole

~Lost in Darkness~
2003-07-19 07:14:54 (UTC)

Sweet Addiction

I know its been a real good time since my last update but
ive been a "LITTLE" busy for the past days. Work hours have
gone up alot. Finding any reason and every reason to spend
time with the love of my life (yes you Brian). And just
trying to have fun. Been to 6 Flags now, brian finally met
Heather on a little road trip we took where we ended up
getting so lost, i felt really guilty about that one. Well
all and all lifes been beyond exceptional. I feel like im
in heaven on earth. Hes my addiction. I can feel it every
time Im with him, cause I never wanna leave his side. Every
departure hurts, but when i see him later I forget all
about it till im leaving again. Even though I dispise
leaving him even for a short time, I welcome the thought of
when Ill see him next. Brian G and Andrew thought I was
crazy when I told them that I was the one who was trying to
spoil him, both thinking (WITH GOOD REASON) that the male
should be the one to pamper. I couldent help but laugh to
myself, as much as any female loves to be pampered, so dose
any guy. Ya the whole gentleman code of honor deal, I know
how it works, but no male can tell me they dont enjoy it
some. Besides, Id gladlly fish over 200$ easy if he needed
it for anything. I dont think Andrew perticularlly liked
that idea considering he was my first b/f and well i spent
maybe 1.50 on him for gas. Im dreading school because of
this addiction I have for him. I dont know how ill cope but
I will. I might have to be with him every night even if its
to do homework, but well get through it. Andrew thinks I
get emotionally attached easily, well if anything were to
happen to us, I dont think anything could prepare him for
what I would proablly do to myself. The very though of
loosing him scares me. He mentioned to me yesterday how at
work some little girl tried to flirt with him, all I could
think was, well it seems I might need that 10 foot pole to
beat other girls away. Then again, I dont think he would
ever consider leaving me.




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