McKaY

McKayism: Everything, Anything & Nothing
2003-07-16 02:02:05 (UTC)

music junkie

i would not consider myself a music freak. i just don't
see myself searching every site n corner for music. i
guess i'm more like a music junk, i'll just listen to
anything i can find or ppl send me as long as i can sink
into the music when i need it... like right now.

soOOoOoo wanna pull all my hair out or just drop n that's
it. the scary thing abt now is it's like before, it's not
just the mental thing, i can feel it is affecting me
physically too. i really do feel tired even if i just have
either 3 hrs or even 10 hrs of sleep, i have trouble
breathing, feel like throwing up n my heart is just
drumming once in a while giving me the weird feeling. my
bipolar disease, sigh.

right now, i'm listening to mp3s on mp3.com w/ my
headphone. it feels so nice to have 2 soft, cushioning
headphones covering ur ears n you hear nothing but music as
ur head moves along w/ the beat. sad thing is, comp is
sloOoOow. so every 5 - 15 secs of bopping head leads to 5 -
15 secs of silence n head will stop.... when the music
begins again, head starts bopping n stops... n over n over
again. very annoying. wanna get new headphones too. the
one i'm using right now, one of the side doesn't work.
usually i'll just stick w/ earphones cuz it's easier to
carry, but it's just so nice to have ur ears covered n all
you hear is music covering the sound of the world and
sometimes even sound of your thoughts.

anything else i don't wanna talk bout, trying to relax n
self meditate... (~o~)




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