Wildthing1983

Feelings...

Dear Diary,

This entry is to put my feelings for a special someone into
words that I can't articulate. They are in Song form, but
they get the point across. These feelings grow each and
everyday, and my heart breaks everyday too. He thinks he
loves someone else. But I know that person is not right for
him, I see things that he can't. I'm trying to be the best
friend I can possibly be. I don't want him out of my life.
I do everything I can to not only make him happy, but to be
honest with him. I treasure every moment we have. Even
though he can't tell me "I love you" back, I still know he
cares. I do dream and pray and wish for him to say it to me
and mean it, but I know that time has not come yet. I pray
that it will come. He is everything I have been looking for
in a man. Everything I have been praying for. I cry almost
everynight. I can't keep quiet about this, he knows how I
feel. And Thankfully, we are still good friends, but it
still hurts so much to see him leave for someone that is
not good for him and is going to hurt him. And no, I'm not
the only one that sees it. I don't know what else to do but
pray and stick by him through everything. So I'm putting 3
songs on here, that best sum up my feelings. The first 2
are by Lonestar and the last one is by Blue October. These
songs not only give me hope, but they help me carry on each
day, even though I'm walking around with a broken heart.
They help me have faith. They help me be strong for him and
me. Let me say one last thing, if you love someone, let
them know, be honest, and do not let them go. Do everything
you can to hold onto them, you never know what can happen
or what will. And never say "I love you" unless you mean
it. And I do mean this.....Brandon, even though you are
with someone, I say this because I do mean it and feel it
with every fiber in my being, I am not saying this to be
selfish or to try and break you guys up, I say it because I
need to, Brandon, I love you.

I'm Already There: Lonestar

He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
And said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there

She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be all right
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes

I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there

We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already
There

Amazed: Lonestar

Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes

Chorus

Solo

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

Calling You: Blue October

There's something that I can't quite explain
I'm so in love with you
You'll never take that away
And if I've said a hundred times before
Expect a thousand more
You'll never take that away

Well, expect me to be
Calling you to see
If you're okay when I'm not around,
Asking if you love me
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I too hard to make you smile,
To make us smile...

I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping or you're dreaming
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me

I thought that the world had lost its sway
(It's so hard sometimes)
Then I fell in love with you
(Then came you)
And you took that away
(It's not so difficult, the world is not so difficult)

You take away the old, show me the new
And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you
So while I'm on this phone
A hundred miles from home
I'll take the words you gave
And send them back to you

I only want to see
If you're okay when I'm not around,
Asking if you love me
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile,
To make us smile....

I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping or you're dreaming
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me...

I hope this gets my feelings across, they have grown since
the first time I told him. I'm not sure if I should say
anything more, or even tell him what everyone is seeing but
him. I'm so lost. Very confused. I just had to get this out
in some shape or form. It's eating me up. Well, I guess
that is it.

-Heather

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