a freak

can you see the real me?
2003-07-13 04:36:01 (UTC)

the oposite

i feel like the oposite of the clouds that are looming
outside my window right now. even though it has been a
warm summers day, dark strom clouds have rolled in. first
just on the horizion, now covering the whole sky. Right
now, my mood dosent match those clouds. I just came back
from a couple days in portland, hanging with one of my
best friends, shopping, talking, laughing our asses off,
and being the crazy people weve come to know and love. I
come home and find my moms new boyfriend sitting here, but
for once im glad that there theres a guy here. its so
awesome to see my mom happy again. she hasnt seemed to be
quite this happy (or this giddy) since her last
relationship fell through. and for the first time in what
feels like forever, it seems like she has picked an
awesome guy. i have no idea how this guy isnt married
(well he was, but im suprised another single lady hasnt
picked him up yet). He and my mom seem perfect for
eachother, and not only that, hes a cool guy as well. He
made sure to acknowledge my prescence, and my rights to my
mom. "I just wanted to let you know that I enjoy spending
time with your mom," he said, "but if theres ever a time
when i need to leave, feel free to tell me so." hes the
only guy that moms dated that i remember that acknowledged
i lived in this house too. unless being called an
annoyance. That made me gain a lot of respect for the guy.
Plus tonight, he atcualy took the time to talk to me,
beyond, how are you. I dont know. i guess ive got a good
feeling about this for my mom. and hopefuly tomorow im
going to get to do something with my boyfriend, and if not
then then SOON. lol. :-D anyways, thigs are going good. im
in this light mood, and feel like everythigs going so
good. These times are so far and few between. I wish they
wernt.




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