Natalie

Today For You
2003-07-13 03:15:18 (UTC)

Breathing

Its so weird. its like one moment im good and the next i
cant breath. i wish i could just settle somewhere in the
middle but i know thats impossiable. poeple just keep
tellin me you gotta be strong Natalie you gotta get through
this but i dont know. i try to belive them and then when i
start it like bam! this new thing just crushes me back down
and i dont know how to get rid of it. i guess i cant keep
it inside forever one day ill just explode from it cuz
nomatter what people say im just a very negative person my
heart knows one thing and my brain tells me another thing.
im so tierd all the time and i dont know why maybe i just
dont sleep any more or maybe i get to much. darkness is all
i feel anymore and im so sick of it. i just wish i couldnt
feel a thing maybe that might make things better for me. my
whole life is skrewed up and i dont know how much longer i
can deal. i think tonights the first real night ive cried
in a long time. maybe thats a good thing.........
Depression: a psychoneurotic or psychotic disorder marked
especially by sadness, inactivity, difficulty in thinking
and concentration, a significant increase or decrease in
appetite and time spent sleeping, feelings of dejection and
hopelessness, and sometimes suicidal tendencies
dosn't that just seem to sum it all up?




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