poeticgem

My sometimes coherent thoughts
2003-07-07 04:05:32 (UTC)

End of a long weekend

and not looking forward to the start of the work week - NOT
AT ALL!

Memories captured in my mind, that's what becomes of
moments in time ... nothing more and nothing less.

Fireworks on Friday night at Santa Monica beach, lying on a
blanket next Harry, holding hands, sharing sweet, intimate
smooches, watching the color laden sky, alone in our own
little world, even though hundreds of people were all
around us.

Saturday morning, waking up early, a few moments of
playtime in the shower. Driving to Melrose, sharing a
sugar free mocha latte at Coffee Bean, Harry eating a
sesame bagel and me, my fave reduced fat raisin bran muffin
(no one makes reduced fat bran muffins like Coffee
Bean!) ... laughing, people watching ... then off to
Solvang ... driving, stuck in traffic, listening to music,
me with my legs across his lap and him rubbing my feet ...
walking around in Solvang like tourists, taking pictures,
checking out the stores, eating lunch in an overpriced
restaurant/diner (Solvang is NOT known for its' great food
and this was NOT our first bad meal experience; we've tried
several different spots all with the same results!) ...
holding hands, acting like two little lovebirds ... sharing
an ice cream cone ... walking around a little more then
back to the car (where on the way he stopped to pick me a
beautiful thorny rose on which he pricked his fingers, all
for the sake of love; ok, all together now, 'AHHHHHHH,
isn't that sweet', well it was!) then off to Santa Barbara
pier and more walking and hand holding; then buying some
candy at a candy store ... seeing a live bat ray just
caught by some cruel guy who says their wing meat is the
next best thing to scallops (it made me cry literally to
see it lying there on the pier fighting for its' life) ...
then back to the car again and on home ... where once back
in our lovely city of Canoga Park we stopped for some Panda
Express for dinner and a delicious Vanilla Expresso.

Sunday morning we woke up late ... I took a shower and then
made some coffee and scrambled eggs and biscuits. Then we
watched 'The Rose' on cable ... then he showered and we did
some online research for a 'playmate' ... we're looking
into exploring and fulfilling a fantasy we have and I'm
kinda excited about seeing if we can make it happen :-)

Then it was back to his place so I could get my car and he
could go on to work for a while. Now I'm going to shower
and then go back to his place.

I did talk to Chantelle today ... she's really causing my
father and Suzie some worries. Her sleep patterns and
eating habits are all out of wack, she flipped out on them
last week after a conversation with me and that really
freaked them out, my father doesn't understand why she is
so depressed all the time ... and Suzie can't deal with not
being able to get along with her because everytime she
opens her mouth to Chantelle, Chantelle has to start an
argument. I'm quite concerned about the effects all this
may be having on my nephew as well. I just don't know what
to do anymore and now my father and Suzie are seeing
exactly how she is and they're not sure they can deal with
it. Chantelle says she misses me and that she was happier
out here then she is out there, but I told her the truth of
the matter is she's just not happy anywhere where there are
adults trying to control her life. I am such a loss ...
even part of me feels guilty for enjoying my time with
Harry.

Well ... I've gotta go take my shower and get outta here ...

I can't write on this anymore right now.

OH - one other thing, my other sister is pregnant again.
Woohoo ... as I sarcastically say. I'm thrilled for her,
but just because she's my sister by blood doesn't mean I
have to like her as a person. Anyway ... not going to go
there right now either.

God, please grant me the serenity to accept the things I
cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and
the wisdom to know the difference, AMEN AND THANK YOU




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